expectationemesis

When was the site updated last? October 14th, 2026.
What was added? More BS to the about page! Saved from my old Neocities page. Woot!

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Name: Lawrence (I also go by Ren/Rena, Raziel, Hal, and... and more. Help.)
Age: 25 years old. I can't believe it either!
Gender: Non-binary demigirl. I prefer he/they pronouns, but I don't really care what ya call me.
Species: Biomechanical sparkledragon
Sexuality: Bisexual grayromantic. I'm also fictoromantic and objectum!
Location: The 7th moon of Jupiter
Zodiac: Capricorn, Year of the SnakeAnyway, haiii! *ahem* Hello! I'm Ren. Queer and proud. Weirdo freak of a furry. I'm what we in the trade call a 'huge nerd idiot'. My interests primarily revolve around old electronics, web archival, and rainbow animals. My brain is, like, elsewhere, d00d. I was born in a wet cardboard box all alone. I've been in the Pillow Room for two and a half hours. Am a certified emotional punching bag. Misanthropic to my core. O_o Pretty sassy... if you even care.I am an artist. A digital artist, primarily, but I do dabble in photography and crafts. I have been drawing ever since I was small, but I started doing it digitally in 2012. I use Paint Tool SAI Ver. 2 (occasionally), Fire Alpaca (mostly), and a Wacom Intuos S (2013) tablet. Over the years, I've shoved my grubby little hands into a bunch of fandoms, but I do a lot of original work too! Most of my art tends to deal with things that make people uncomfortable, though. xPI am a webmaster. I mean... by definition. Not in the way which a lot of indie web programmers use it, as in a person who's hand-coded their website from the ground up. Older versions of EXPnem were hand-coded, however versions 9 and above are all built in Carrd.

General — Art, retro-computing, vintage technology, programming, web archival/old web, furry, stuffed animals (especially teddy bears!), biology, entomology, medicine, forensics, mountaineering.Music artists — 009 Sound System, alt-J, A Perfect Circle, Aphex Twin, Ayesha Erotica, Big Data, Blue Stahli, Calvin Harris, Carpenter Brut, Chemlab, Daft Punk, Deadmau5, Depeche Mode, Ephixa, Front Line Assembly, Grabbitz, Health, Innerpartysystem, Johnathan Coulton, Klayton, Pendulum + Knife Party, Phutureprimative, Korn, Martin Solveig, Melanie Martinez, ohGr, OK Go, Savant, Skinny Puppy, Noise Unit, Owl City, Skrillex, Sneaker Pimps, System Of A Down, The Crying Spell, The Faint, Nine Inch Nails, Nouveau Arcade, Pegboard Nerds, Tally Hall, Squarepusher & SO MANY MOREEE AGHHHHVideo games — A Short Hike, Amnesia: The Dark Descent, Call of Duty: Modern Warfare ('09), Daymare Town, Disco Elysium, Dishonored, Don't Starve, Fingerbones, Gorogoa, Half-life, Haunting Ground, Machinarium, Minecraft, Mouthwashing, Outlast, Penumbra, Portal + Portal 2, Silent Hill 2, Submachine Legacy, The Binding of Isaac, The Long Dark, Vintage Story, Webbed.Literature — (TBA)Movies & TV — 2001: A Space Odyssey, Annihilation, Criminal Minds, Doctor Who, Forensic Files, Labyrinth (1986), Lord of the Rings, MirrorMask, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Shutter, Star Trek: The Next Generation, Star Wars (mainline movies, Clone Wars '03 and '08, Rebels), The Hobbit, The Terminator, The Wicker Man, TURN: Washington's Spies, V/H/S movies

EXPECTATIONemesis was created on September 11th, 2021. It was first hosted on Neocities under the name of cyberangeldust.neocities.org. At the time, I was looking for a new place to call "home", as deviantART was doing... things I wasn't crazy about (*cough cough* Eclipse *cough cough*). So, cyberangeldust was to become the home of my artistic endeavors. And it was good! ... Until it wasn't. ^^"Now, I loved Neocities a lot, don't get me wrong! Most of this site's life was spent on that platform. I learned a lot during those years, made some pretty darn cool acquaintances, and had so much fun screwing around with HTML and CSS. But, the community left a LOT to be desired... primarily because there was a community at all. oAo All the drama and weird superiority complexes left a bad taste in my mouth. </3 I thought we were all jus' chilling, having fun learning programming... Why're we making ~manifestos~ n' shit? Who cares?! WHO CARES?? D8JKASDHA... So! Couple those feelings with feeling widely uninspired with my site, and the fact that Neocities was costin' me $5 a month, I ended up just dipping. Felt it was the best thing for meh. :P And while I've never been too crazy about site-builders, I've never had anything against Carrd. I've been using their services since 2017, after all! And with how cheap Carrd's paid services are, the decision to scoot over here was easy."Yeah, that's nice, are you done?" GAH, rude! D:< Can a bitch ramble a little? Sheesh! Fine, I'll explain more about the site itself, as opposed to its history. :I Hmph.EXPECTATIONemesis is a combination of expectation and nemesis (wow, no kidding), which comes from the lyric, "I'll be the nemesis of expectation", from the song Anti You by Blue Stahli (aka Bret Autrey). I can't tell you why that particular song spoke to me, especially considering that 2021-22-ish was the height of my Celldweller obsession, but hey! It's a damn good song.Here, have a listen. Heck, go buy the album. S'really good. ^_^

Anyhoo! The domain was originally bought on Google Domains. However, once Google sold their domain service to Squarespace (who I have a personal vendetta against due to their persistent advertising lawl), I promptly scooted my domain to Cloudflare. I like Cloudflare! They've never done me no wrong. Utterly riveting, eh?

To be added...

Web shrines! I used to make a ton of these back in 2022-23. My shrines primarily consist of playlists, soundscapes, and moodboards. Sometimes there will be gushing, other times there won't be. It all depends on what the shrine's purpose is. ^_^ Please enjoy!Be warned: most of these shrines are NOT designed for mobile users! Heck, I'm surprised that most of EXPECTATIONemesis looks half-decent on mobile. .-.; Sorry, mobile users. Feel free to check out other parts of my site! <:D

Bleed :; — dedicated to HAL 9000 of 2001: A Space OdysseyRust // — part moodboard, part shrine, dedicated to rust and decay (TBA)

I browse the internet a lot! I mean, that's pretty obvious. :P BUT! Because of that, I've seen a lot of super cool websites over the years! And because I think sharing is caring, I thought I'd compile my findings into a neat lil list. ^_^Keep in mind: I am not affiliated with the following sites in any way. Just because I've linked a site here doesn't mean I fully support them or their creators, nor may they support me. While I have gone through the sites linked here in the past, times changes, and nothing lasts forever.Either way, please enjoy!

Also check out my favorite dragon on Flight Rising, Macbeth! He's my baby. <3